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Sugarpea #58 Primordial
01:20
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I don't like this
Not at all
But I'll take it on
Before I take it off
I know you'd like the primordial crawl
Just take a number and I'll give you a call
You're gonna get it
You'll get it all
You tease and kick me
Like you're in control
But I'm too dumb for you
To push around
You tear me up
But I keep going down
You're the one who had to make this hard
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I don’t need a reason
I don’t need to say why
What’s it matter to you
If all my batteries died
It kind of slipped away
I guess I couldn’t say why
Hard plastic shattered tonight
And then the stereo died
I am in heavy rotation
Stuck in this station
And every single
Time I turn away
Your song starts to play
I would love to change
My signals faded away
I couldn’t handle this right
And so I’m forced to stay
And what’s it matter to you
If Ive got nothing to do
I’m hearing static patterns
But I can never get through
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Time to pause
Time to stop
If you're thinking
You've had enough
Grab yourself a slurpie
sized snow cone
While waiting
To move on
Just take your time,
Just to figure it out
Gotta slow it down
To see what its all about
You'll figure out
What you're missing
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Sugarpea #61 You Have To
02:08
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I don’t want to wake up
I don’t want to work
I don’t want to see the same faces
I’m just burnt out
Ya I’m shriveled up, braindead
I wonder who I have to blow
To get a little head here
I need a little time to just reconstruct
Cuz when I’m feeling this low
Everything’s tough
And when I’m tired
I wish that I could turn this off
But with or without me the song will go on
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I was gonna read your book
The one that took you all those months
I was going to sing to you
But my throat just shriveled up
And I was gonna fix everything
I was gonna make it great
But at this tender time
I can only fall asleep
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I can't find a resolve
I keep on changing this bulb
I cant find you at all
But I don't think I want to, is all
I can't find my way on
I keep on faking results
But if calling me out is your call
Here's the truth, I just don't want anything is all
I am just a picky people pleaser
I don't want anything
Nor you from I either
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You have to, you’ve gotta
Make it work
I don’t know much, but of this
I’m sure
Its not like I think you deserve it
But all this pain you dish is self serve(ing)
And I don’t know why you would choose to stay here
(I don’t think you understand the problem)
I don’t know why you’d choose to stay
You have to, you’ve gotta
make it work
They say they need you and I’m sure
You need you too, please
Make it work
There’s no need for hell but you make it hurt
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Everything is dust inside my mouth
Collecting on my tongue
I don’t think that I can keep it down
What’s been passing through my lungs
Nothing new has touched these lips
Nothing new has caught my eye
You probably don’t remember me
At least that’s what I’m hoping all the time
Maybe its for the best
Its time to pack it in
Maybe I should give this a rest
Its time to pack it in
I saw a film and decided
Maybe I’d better be quiet
All my words are regurgitated
I’m prone to shovel it all back in
These songs are all coming true
Something divine or did I already know
I’ll be cautious of the words that I choose
But what’s it matter if I know that I lose?
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Sugarpea #66 Leave Me Be
03:07
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Tell me that I'm ugly
Tell me that I'm stupid
Tell me that I'm worthless
And that's why you wont be with me
Take me by the hand
And go ahead and shove me
If you don't think you can
Then go away and leave me be
Tell me it's your dad
Or maybe your whole family
Tell me it's my hair
Or maybe just my body
Tell me that it's me
I'm too self deprecating
Or did I just suck in bed
Believe me, it's occurred to me
Say it if you want
I don't really give a damn
Taking me apart
And I wont care to take a stand
Tell me that I'm lonely
Tell me that I'll always be
Tell me everything
Everything that's wrong me
Don't tell me that I'm not
Not fucked a lot
No, don't say that it's in my head
Tell me I'm depressed
I don't want your advice
As far as I'm concerned
The odds of me being happy
Are a million to one
Say it if you want
I don't really give a damn
Taking me apart
I have no strength to take a stand
Take me by the hand
And go ahead and shove me
If you don't think you can
Then go away and leave me be
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Red hair right in my eyes
Brighter than your favorite maroon dye
This felt just like a scene
In a John Hughes movie
Two kids in the closet
One of them losing
Their clothes as we kissed
And you helped me strip
From my friends mothers dress
But not before we ruined it
Hiking up your skirt
Taking off my dress
Baby does it burn?
Hands across my chest
Kissing in the closet
Making quite a mess
Baby does it burn
Fingers up your legs
I can see clearly
Heartstrings like ribbons attach you to me
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I cant seem to put it in words
And I don't know what purpose it would serve
But if I could
I'd feel so much better
On the other side of this
There's someone waiting for me
And all the rest of us
And when I meet her
I'll feel so much better
A piece of me shifts away
As if that means anything
I'm here to stay
I'm here to change
But it'll be a long time
Before I'm any better
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Another chunk shifts into the water
And my glacier grows the biggest bit smaller
A piece of me gone with barely a splash
A piece of me lost in the black briny depths
Strapped myself to a glacier in the great arctic circle
If you're not too busy we could find you another?
You sure? I brought sandwiches
On the rocks like vodka and tonic
And when I've had too much I struggle not to vomit
Of course vodka costs money
But thinking of you is free
So I've strapped myself to an iceberg
And I'm drifting out to sea
At least I brought sandwiches
Another chunk lost in the rising heat
Another chunk lost, that I'll surely be missing
But its all for the best if my brain goes dead
I'm just shutting myself down
Instead of shutting myself in a personal bodybag
At least I brought sandwiches
I'm growing numb, lips turned blue
My glacier just sunk, and took me down too
I did it again, I tried to undo
Everything I've ever done
but couldn't get past losing you
At least I brought sandwiches
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I washed up on a beach I'd never seen before
on the edge of a city made of memories
all the places I'd forgotten, and everyone I'd dreamed
It was like I'd always been here, but never was
I drained my shoes beneath a twilight sky
and trekked into a city of neon colored lights
So many blurred faces as I went on my way
all of them smiling with nothing to say
to me at least...
But again they were all familiar and not at the same time
I would soon realize why
This lovely lithe blonde girl
She wore a pretty gray dress and unlaced shoes
My heart skipped a beat, when she said that she knew me
She held out her hand and I took it
I wondered where she was taking me
but it was like I had merely forgotten and already knew
This was my land of the dead
full of people I had known and been acquainted with
They appeared to be having a wonderful time
I wanted to explore, I wanted to take it all in
I felt as if I belonged here, this was where I wanted to be
but before I could get any further James approached me
he said "Isn't there somewhere you need to be? Perhaps your best friends birthday party?"
"I suppose" I said, "but there's nothing for me back there." I turned towards the beach
I could see another bright city just on the horizon
James rolled his eyes. "You're full of it. You need to go back and take care of yourself.
Why on earth would you want to be like us?"
I thought about it for awhile
I really did
but nothing came of it
James and the blonde just stared at me
and when I failed to come up with a single answer
they just smiled at me.
The mystery girl, grinning, said. "Sadie is waiting for you..."
"Who's Sadie?" I asked
"You know, Lucifer. Satan." She giggled
I found this slightly unsettling but suddenly it didn't matter
I was snapped back into the black by my alarm
I was awake and back in my bed
my clothes soaked to the bone
I was the only one here, but not exactly alone
I struggled to remember her name, but it just wouldn't come
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I tried to come up with something terribly personal
like a page from my journal but I am neglectful
I just couldn’t write it all down
without picking these stitches all out
It’s a fault I know that I don’t care for myself
Self forgiveness is not my forte and neither is self help
Just know that I’m sorry and I haven’t dropped this torch
mostly because it’s dark and I’ve never been here before
I don’t want to waste another
thought on it
Your sweets are bitter sweet and it’s rotting my teeth
I know it’s just a day designed by corporate suits
but I bought myself some chocolates, cuz if not me, then who?
I was sorry to find the ants got to it first
and what I could salvage, only tasted like dirt
I should lay off the sweets, what a terrible supplement
when I’m feeling this bad, it only tastes like cement
All this to say, I hope you’re content and well loved
It feels pointless to say, but never enough
I’ve got a mouth like a drooling faucet that just never stops
I…I…just wish I could shut myself off
I won’t sugarcoat it
I’m at a loss
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I’m gonna leave this right here
like I should’ve done months ago
I can turn my back, I don’t have to look
No more phantom taps, to keep me on the hook
I’m gonna leave this right here
like you so wisely did
I was just afraid, of giving up this dream
you and I together, and a couple of kids
But it’s all for the best, one way or the other
I can leave this pretty balloon right here
to blow away, wherever, whenever
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I live in all these songs
And notes that I Ieft on the table
Reliving all these wrongs
Taking no time off to recover
Ive lost all use for metaphors
You are the one that I adore
Missing you has been torture
Ill keep on missing, but wont be miserable anymore
I live in all these songs
The ones that we'd sing along
The records we'd set the needle on
Or just the tunes that we'd settle for
Ive lived in all our memories
On repeat, on repeat, on repeat
But Id like to live my life again
Lets pick the needle up
'Fore the grooves have all worn away
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Taking notes for things we’d like to do
Upstairs for a downtown view
You’re riding the airwaves
I’m riding the brainwaves to a great glass city
She smiles every time we come through
And I savor the downtown view
Enjoy the seconds that I get with you
Know every time this will have to do
I can only take so much pretty
And we could play a hundred questions or 2
Waiting at the counter for a downtown view
Positively sweet and full of smiles
Something I haven’t done in awhile
but it’s so damn fitting
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I wrote you songs
shouldn’t that be enough
to get you back
I thought we were in love
I know you told me
it was time to move on
I know you told me
but I have to hold on
Try to be someone else
Why would you say that
you knew who he was
Haven’t I suffered?
Yeah, Ive suffered enough
It doesn’t matter
because you are in love
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Lets fill this pad of paper, with everything we savor
about the ones we used to love and save it all for later
I’m on this kick where I constantly wish that
I hadn’t fucked it all and you wanted to want this
Frankly I’m tired and it’s getting old
hearing my friends tell me to let this go
Thursday, Thursday
I’m thirsty, thirsty
Anything to make this hurt less
Everything to kill me but never forget
Lets fill our heads with booze, tongue to roof
to wash out this terrible taste, pulpy waste
chunks of my heart come up to my lips
every time I might consider a kiss
on some girl, I’m sure it’s just coincidence
I hesitate, I grimace
When I say your name, I painfully slip
I called her by the wrong name
It’s so funny anyway…
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There's no one like you
No one that I care to know
Where ever you are
is obviously where I wanna go
There's a million fish in the sea , but only one like you in the world
but I could never keep you in a tank ,that wouldn't do you any good
and good is all I want for you
There's plenty like me
musical so-so's
They'd all be lucky to have you
and they wear headphones too
The odds are against me I'll fail most likely
but I'm so bad with numbers the odds have no meaning
and even at odds you mean the world to me
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Its a slippery slope
Without a hand to hold
And if I reached for you now
I'd find your fingers were cold
You always said
You felt a warmth from my chest
But now the fire has gone out
And all my matches are wet
And maybe I could start your heart again
But someone else has got it in his hands
I'm watching as he brings you back to life
I have to turn away and get back to mine
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This is a lullaby for a lonely star
Sitting on your front steps, sitting in your car
All the dark ever did was exaggerate your scars
But knowing that doesn’t change who you are
This is a lullaby for a lonely star
Far out in space or in your room
Its cold out here but it gets better
At least, ill admit, wed like to assume
This is a lullaby for a lonely star
You don’t think we saw you
When you fell out of the sky
But I swear we’ve never seen
A star burn so bright
Before collapsing in the night
Maybe you’re in deep space
And it took so long to reach us
We just got the message
You’ve gone full blown supernova
I know this sounds silly
I doubt you find this at all clever
You’re a lone, pretty star
Or a pretty lonely star. Whatever
You could fall right onto me
And I might crack beneath the weight
But at least we’ll be together
When we meet our star crossed fate
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I was really gonna text you back
but then I got tired
I was gonna write a really awesome song
But then I got tired
I was gonna write something vaguely depressing about you
Well not really about you but my feelings for you
But then I got tired
I was going to discover the meaning of life and everything else
But then I got tired
And I’m tired almost every day
And I know why
I’d explain it but I’m tired
I was really gonna finish this song…
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Sugarpea #81 Chew
02:56
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I'm running into you
Plate glass in full view
Crashed, red ribbons all for you
shattered glass, two for two
A pitcher you drink
A beer that you chew
Bleeding gums, broken jaw
shattered glass, two for two
I bite your lip
and I chew, I chew, I chew
I bite your arm
and we're through, we're through, we're through
and I chew, I chew, I chew
#19 glows in the dark
and every volume is close to my heart
But it's not like you read these anyway
But I'll think of you when I read them
What else is there to say?
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I’m going to tell you everything
The secrets that have always made me bleed
If i could find the words
If i could stop from choking
I love you, i miss you
But these are good moments
I could only share with friends
But god damn I really need to rest
I’m going to make you all forget
That loneliness that slipped inside your head
I’m so full of love its almost funny
And I will tell you that i love you
Cuz i think you need to hear it from me
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Sugarpea #83 Hardly
01:30
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Four walls came down
And took everything else
Left nothing but snow
And a trail leading off
Nothing I want is down there
But I wonder
Is it colder in my room
Or colder by your bedside
And darling dear
I'll leave
As if you noticed me here
Hardly
Ive been wanting to see the sights but I only see him when I look in your eyes
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My insides are all torn up
Ive been keeping these screams inside my guts
When friends ask me how I am
They do not see the dam
That will surely soon erupt
From the cracks that have corrupted it
With every picture,
every image,
every song I dare to finish, every time my friends remind me,
every time that i remind me
I can feel it in my lungs
A scream that just goes on and on
A scream that's perfectly encapsulated
Why I need to be sedated
Before I take a blade serrated
And cut out words to be translated
"Hopeless romantics are quite ill fated." And
"Ill see you on the other side"
Ill say plunging this silly knife
But I just sigh
Or i get real quiet
Another piece of me
Has died in silence
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Well the sun came up
And the snow departed
So the show will go on
And so will all of the parties
I couldn't help but feel
This was all that I asked for
But seeing you
I hate to say
Just made it better
Well the kiss was planted
And I took it for granted
And I took a few slaps
From a better friend than I
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The Yeti Colorado Springs, Colorado
Solo project featuring the frontman of A Bad Night For A Hero.
The Yeti writes deeply personal and melancholy music because he can and because there's no other place to go...
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